I have had enough. I just want to get back out and see the sunshine.
Once again, I am finding myself at the bottom of that old familiar cobblestone well in the far corner of my mind.
My eyes have well adjusted to the dark and I am staring at the imprint of myself in dried mud. At least I am no longer lying down with my flesh pressed into the earth. I am upright, if hunched over & just barely.
But this is the hard part.
Once I have decided to rise from the dead, I have to figure out how.
I don’t bring a rope or ladder when I fall into the well; I only get out by clawing my way to the top, sheer willpower.
But I am still tired. It would be so much easier if I were to just lay back down.