“V’s Nuts” is an Original Clay Sculpture by Amber R. Maddox 💘
First Coil Piece for Ceramics Hand-building 1 Assignment: Fertility Ritual Vase
In the Greenware state- barely leather hard.
Can’t wait to fire this baby up and glaze it!
In progress… more to come 💋
Three weeks ago today, I walked out of your front door with two bags of clothes, my dog, and what tiny bit of dignity I had left.
I wish I could say that it was easy. I wish I could say that I am sure that this is what I want. I wish I could say that I will replace you. But I can’t say any of that just yet. So I won’t.
I can say that I am happier now. I don’t feel as mentally weighed now. I want to love myself now. I didn’t care to before.
Since we have parted ways, I have went to see my primary doctor and my therapist (which I haven’t seen either in three years prior), I have set up a full schedule of six classes (most taken yet) for the Fall semester (while maintaining my current 4.0), and I have gotten a part-time job. I haven’t found an apartment yet. I haven’t saved enough to make a move. But I am hopeful and trying.
I wonder how you are and how you have been. I want to talk to you so much that it makes the lump in my throat ache and the knot in my stomach swell. How do you feel being surrounded by me? All of my stuff is still strewn about your house. We haven’t spoken since two days after, when you said you were happier this way. We haven’t spoken of my things or when or where I will move them. I just don’t know yet. So we won’t talk until I do.
I am currently living with my mother for the first time since I was seventeen. I am sharing a room with my little sister. We are all getting along better than I ever expected. I am grateful. I am humbled. I am loved.
But I am also impatient. I want progress. I want to move forward. I want to be past this part, past this chapter where I am hurting. Growing pains, we will call them. I am ready to start loving myself. Where to begin?